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May 18, 2025

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Transmute / Rage Letter

At the end of June, I decided that I wanted to “step back for the weekend” to let some emotions flow and process things I’ve been suppressing. What started as a weekend turned into the entire month of July. I realized I needed more space than I had thought because I felt both burnt out and restless at the same time. During this month, I went through many phases I still want to process in writing. Today, I want to tell you about my rage letter. At the end of July, I took a week off and decided to explicitly allow my emotions to flow again. On Tuesday morning, I started with a breathwork exercise I learned in a workshop with Carla. The psychedelic effect of this exercise continues to surprise me: it usually stirs up a lot of emotions that have accumulated in my body, and I need a few days to let them flow through me. Afterward, I feel clearer and freer. Tuesday and Wednesday, I spent my days in the forest and by the lake. I went alone, sat by the water, then retreated to the woods to soak in the nature and meditate. All with as little phone time or other activities as possible. And wow, did I feel awful at times. Just sitting there, feeling bad, and accepting it without distracting myself was hard to bear. Thankfully, I managed to remind myself now and then that I was doing this intentionally, that it was normal to feel this way, and that these feelings needed to flow through me. This allowed me to observe my emotions from a distance and not take every negative thought associated with them seriously. And somehow, even though I didn’t feel good, it became a deeply beautiful experience—one I remember fondly and consider one of the most impactful of the year. All my life, I’ve been so afraid of "negative" emotions that I’ve always focused on getting rid of them quickly. Now I’m slowly learning that every emotion has its place, and that it can be an incredibly raw and beautiful experience to give space to a feeling I've resisted for so long. Those days were both shitty and sacred. On Wednesday evening, I walked through the city looking for something to eat. Somehow, I got frustrated—nothing was going right. On my way home, I was suddenly overtaken by anger. I was furious at this "stupid vacation," at "just sitting around feeling bad." Suddenly, I was mad at all sorts of things that bubbled up. Luckily, after some time I could remind myself again that it was okay for these emotions to surface, that this was an opportunity to release them. So I marched home (angrily!), sat down in my room, turned on some music, and wrote a rage letter for an hour. I just wrote nonstop, without pausing or questioning. This method is also called stream of consciousness writing. I wanted to write something no one would ever read, giving myself the freedom to say things I'd never otherwise say. Later, I could barely read any of it because it was so scribbled. The words fucking and shit appeared very often.

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May 15, 2025

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Patterns

According to estimates, we make at least 90% of our daily decisions unconsciously. This often leads us to repeat patterns we learned at some point (often in childhood). Shadow Work is a practice focused on bringing unconscious patterns into awareness. Breaking these patterns is also referred to as breaking the cycle. The following methods and exercises can help in recognizing patterns: - Written methods, e.g. journaling - Visual methods, e.g. drawing a timeline

CreatedMay 19, 2025
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Human Organism

When we're zooming out, we can see that each of our actions has an impact on the human web as a whole. Emotions, ideas... a lot can get carried over. When we're stressed on our way to work, we might get annoyed by someone who is blocking our way, maybe even react accordingly. This could lead to both of us having a negative experience, being angry about each other and carrying this with us. At work, this could lead to additional stressful interactions, leading to coworkers bringing that tension home and complaining about it with friends and family. Everything we do can have a (sometimes tiny, sometimes big) chain reaction. It is our choice what we bring into the organism. To us, this means: - Taking responsibility for our emotions. We strive to be able to consciously decide when we can transmute our emotions ourselves so that we don't bring unnecessary stress and violence into the organism. - Not being too hard on ourselves: Negative emotions aren't alway bad and we shouldn't feel guilty about affecting other people.

UpdatedMay 15, 2025
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May 7, 2025

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Book: All About Love

All About Love is a popular book by bell hooks. "To open our hearts more fully to love's power and grace we must dare to acknowledge how little we know of love in both theory and practice." "The word 'love' is most often defined as a noun, yet all the more astute theorists of love acknowledge that we would all love better if we used it as a verb." "To begin by always thinking of love as an action rather than a feeling is one way in which anyone using the word in this manner automatically assumes accountability and responsibility." "One of the most important social myths we must debunk if we are to become a more loving culture is the one that teaches parents that abuse and neglect can coexist with love." "Lots of people learn how to lie in childhood. Usually they begin to lie to avoid punishment or to avoid disappointing or hurting an adult." "In far too many cases children are punished in circumstances where they respond with honesty to a question posed by an adult authority figure." "When we hear another person's thoughts, beliefs, and feelings, it is more difficult to project on to them our perceptions of who they are." "All awakening to love is spiritual awakening."

UpdatedOctober 20, 2025
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Collective Liberation

"Nobody's free until everybody's free." – Fannie Lou Hamer The term collective liberation describes the notion that everyone suffers under oppressive structures. Contributing to liberation means taking responsibility in different areas of life. For example, it is important to find the right balance in the type of work: - Shadow Work: Actively work on recognizing and dismantling oppressive power structures. - Light Work: Actively work on building a world based on mutual trust and care. "Nobody's free until everybody's free." – Fannie Lou Hamer "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. We are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly."

UpdatedSeptember 26, 2025
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Eat the Frog

Eat the frog is a productivity method that is inspired by a quote attributed to Mark Twain: “If it’s your job to eat a frog, it’s best to do it first thing in the morning. And If it’s your job to eat two frogs, it’s best to eat the biggest one first.” The goal is to tackle the most unpleasant task first as part of a morning routine, allowing you to start the day with a clear mind and a sense of accomplishment. - Make a list of tasks for the day, ideally the day before. - Identify the ones that you are most dreading, which you would most certainly procrastinate, with the result of them staying in the back of your mind all day, costing you energy. - Tackle these uncomfortable tasks first. This will let you start the day with a sense of accomplishment and free up energy that was previously locked by having this task on your mind.

UpdatedJuly 4, 2025
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Light Work

Light work means using tools that help us shape our world in a positive way. While shadow work is about recognizing patterns that might be holding us back, light work is about cultivating new, healthy patterns that have previously been beyond our imagination. While a lot of light work techniques are focused on the self, the act of imagining and building a better future for everyone is an important part of collective liberation. On an individual level, we can have an impact by taking responsibility for the energy we bring into the human organism. On a collective level, we can work together and envision a world that's beyond our current imagination, for example through utopianism. - Exercising our imagination of what's possible, for example using visualization techniques and affirmations. - Training ourselves to be in the present and cultivating awe, for example through gratitude journaling and awe walks.

UpdatedAugust 6, 2025
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Othering

Othering means focusing on our differences instead of what connects us. Instead of seeing the whole of humanity as an organism with the potential to collaborate with each other, it draws artificial lines between us and them. Othering is the near enemy of belonging. By defining some people as outsiders, we can feel connected the group of insiders. The human need for a sense of belonging to a larger group is often weaponized by propaganda. - Any type of discrimination - A focus on the nuclear family instead of the greater collective and community - Love stories based on "us against the rest of the world" - Finding a common enemy to bring together a group of people

UpdatedJune 11, 2026
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Privilege

For us, one of the most effective ways to understand how privilege works is the following question: Whose voice gets heard?

CreatedMay 7, 2025
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Responsibility

To us, taking responsibility means recognizing which aspects of life we can truly influence and control. It's a practice of inner alignment and sovereignty. It also means leaving space for other people to take responsibility for their own choices and behaviors. We're realizing more and more that we can't make others act a certain way. We can't control anyone, and we shouldn't want to. Through shadow work, we learn how our unconscious patterns ripple into the collective. Taking responsibility then means practicing accountability when we're confronted with harm we may have caused.

UpdatedOctober 20, 2025
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Shadow Work

"Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate." – Carl Jung Shadow work describes the process of examining and integrating the hidden shadow parts of ourselves. It is about making unconscious patterns conscious, and integrating them so that we don't get controlled by aspects of ourselves that we deny. While shadow work is often used for individuals, there are also a lot of hidden and subconscious aspects in society as a whole. Carl Jung used the term collective unconscious. As above so below means that the collective shadow influences the shadow of human individuals, and vice versa. By working on recognizing our own subconscious patterns, we also help breaking patterns at the collective level.

UpdatedAugust 20, 2025
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Transmutation

Transmutation describes the process of transforming how we feel by letting our emotions flow. How can we transmute energy that's moving through the organism? We have a choice how we react on others' energy. Do we carry it with us, being angry at something they said or a certain look they gave us? Do we attribute "good" or "bad" intention to it? Assuming innocence can be a powerful way for instant transmutation. Giving people the benefit of the doubt is also to the benefit of ourselves and to the whole collective. Potential harmful energy evaporates if we decide not to carry it with us. It gets transmuted without us having to take it in and transmute it through our bodies.

UpdatedJune 10, 2026
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Utopianism

Utopianism is a light work technique with the goal to envision a better future where humans live together in a healthy, sustainable way. It stretches our muscles of imagination and allows us to step outside of our current systems and thought patterns. How does the human organism live together in the future? How do people spend their lives together, how are they organized? How do members of the society see themselves?

UpdatedAugust 19, 2025
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April 30, 2025

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Relationship Anarchy

The term Relationship Anarchy (RA) was coined by Andie Nordgren in an article called The short instructional manifesto for relationship anarchy. Relationship Anarchy is understood as a philosophy that applies anarchist principles to relationships, which means: - Questioning normativities and rigid relationship categories by defining each relationship through mutual communication. - Recognizing and working on dismantling structual power dynamics that affect the individual relationship (as above so below). Calling yourself Relationship Anarchist can be a bit daunting, because people often understand it was being free of any societal rules of expectations. This is why we sometimes use the term Relationship Anarchism instead, which recognizes this philosophy as a process, not a goal.

CreatedMay 1, 2025
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tender.garden v0.1

For over four years, we’ve been collecting thoughts, concepts, links, and personal experiences around the topic of Collective Liberation. Now all of it finally has a home: _tender.garden. This platform is our digital garden — a place to learn in public, to share, to sort our thoughts. Things are allowed to grow, remain unfinished, and change over time. At the moment, tender.garden_ is made up of the following categories: - Blog Posts – Personal reflections and stories - Concepts – Ideas we’re working with - Tools – Exercises and frameworks that help us - Resources – Books, articles, and links that shaped us While blog posts are time-stamped and reflect specific moments, the goal for the other categories is to continuously expand and evolve them. Here’s a screenshot from our concept page of Relationship Anarchy:

CreatedApril 30, 2025
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April 26, 2025

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Book: Existential Kink

Existential Kink is a shadow integration technique that was popularized by Carolyn Lovewell. In her book Existential Kink: Unmask Your Shadow and Embrace Your Power a Method for Getting What You Want by Getting Off on What You Don't, she offers a variety of stories and exercises that show how readers can not only learn about and accept, but even embrace their hidden desires. "This book presents a life-altering shadow integration meditative practice that invites us to make conscious the unconscious pleasure that we take in the stuck, painful patterns of our lives. Through consciously enjoying and giving approval to these previously unconscious 'gulity pleasures,' we interrupt and end the stuck patterns so that we can get what we really want in our lives." "As long as we have unconscious (repressed, denied, disowned) enjoyment in some 'bad' thing in our lives, we will keep seeking out that very same 'bad' thing." In the book, Carolyn often references this quote attributed by Carl Jung: "Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate." – Carl Jung As long as we don't accept our hidden patterns, we are going to repeat them over and over again. History repeats itself. In Existential Kink, Carolyn gives many exercises that help with the process of making the unconscious conscious. - Deepest Fear Inventory

UpdatedAugust 20, 2025
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Deepest Fear Inventory

Deepest Fear Inventory is a stream of consciousness writing exercise popularized by Carolyn Lovewell in her book Existential Kink. The goal of this exercise is to: - Write down all fears that are currently holding you back from making a specific change in your life - Accept these fears by speaking them out loud - Letting go by tearing the sheet of paper to pieces On a sheet of paper, write something like: "Dear Universe, I refuse to have/do [add your desire]" Then write down a liste of bullet points with everything that could be holding you back: - "because I have deep fear that I..." - "because I have deep fear that I..."

UpdatedAugust 20, 2025
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